Moments of great contentment and fulfillment- I felt it this morning while in a prayer meeting with a group of women, a meditative state, a transcendence, peace.
Other times in the day it's contrasted by a boredom, a longing, an anxiety, a nameless longing. Yes, there's a fire in my bones that yells for expression, for more. I want more of God, His presence to be manifested. Other times, the fire is God in me saying there's more I want to give you but be patient with the process, the purification, the purging.
That's a lot of alliteration there, for sure. I've never been big on patience.
Right now, He's doing an adjustment, a realignment, like a divine chiropractor shifting and moving my parts to sync better to His plan for me.
Will I listen, be attentive, trust and free fall in His arms---releasing anxiety and watch Him prove Himself to me yet again?
I marveled at His faithfulness to me as I sat today in a room I sat in 60 years prior and was immersed in Him. He carried me there, He was and is THE FAITHFUL ONE. I knew it, sensed it, felt it. He is the God that heals, delivers and teaches us His ways in slow and gentle rhythms of His grace.
Abraham believed God...it was enough in a time prior to the cross when 'works' was all that was known to men. He knew it deeper than the religious culture, the fear, the unknown. And now He (Abba) asks the same of us, will you believe me when I say I love you, will take care of you, fill you up to overflow?
Let your holy fire purge me of the dross to a greater height of faith and knowing....
Selah (pause and calmly think of that)
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