It happened again! My friend from church snubbed me or the Pastor didn't return my call or my Mother in law commented on my kids and I am a wreck, yet again. I promised I wouldn't do this to myself, I even memorized bible verses and "sticky noted" them to my mirror. I am trying so hard to walk in the fruit of the Spirit and all I get is pruned. There has to be more to the Christian life than this, something more...
If you have felt like this, join the club of spiritually mature women who are still emotionally bleeding but good news, you do not have to renew the membership. Just as we don't have to try to live out the lies we believe, "I'm worthless, I'm wrong" (it's effortless, right?), we should not have to TRY to have peace, a sense of well being and acceptance deep in our being as we live everyday life. Maybe the problem is what I truly believe; do I intellectually believe what the scripture says but my heart hasn't been convinced that I am loved and valuable?
Think about it, do you have to convince yourself of your belief in gravity? No, you just walk in it, or feels it's effects. The same is true of what we really believe spiritually- once the Holy Spirit persuades us of the truth, the holy "aha" we will not be triggered the same way by people, places and lies.
Impossible you say? Can't I just rebuke and denounce strongholds and be "zapped" into transformation and the renewing of my mind? What are we really saying is, "I want to bypass relationship with the Spirit and not take the time to position myself to hear and be ministered to by Jesus".
Of course we don't consciously say that, but the "Martha" mode, the pain aversion through eating, drinking a lot of wine, acting out, yelling at our husband or being a ministry superstar is proof that we would rather have pain management than transformation.
I can help you in your journey to position yourself for something more.... The Holy Spirit awaits the courageous heart who sits still to seek him.
Laurenblackburncoach.com Laurenblackburncoach@gmail.com
Comments